Your Name

I wrote your name in the sky,

but the wind blew it away.

I wrote your name in the sand,

but the waves washed it away.

I wrote your name in my heart,

and forever it will stay.

When I Remember

I can't hide my biggest smile

When I remember that day
When I remember the fourth of March
When I remember that you picked me up at school
When I remember that you were at my living room, sitting there

When I remember that we laughed
When I remember that you held my hand
When I remember that you told me your stories
When I remember that I really appreciated to hear your stories
When I remember that I found it hard not to smile at you
When I remember that finally I could pinched your cheek

When I remember that you played me some songs
When I remember that you sang If I Ain't Got You
When I remember that I took a bow, that I was so sensible

When I remember that you asked me that question :
"Kamu....Mau Nggak..Mmm...Jadi..Mmmm..Pacar...Aku...?"
When I remember that I smiled
When I remember that I looked into your eyes deeply
When I remember that you held my hands again
When I remember that I couldn't speak well
When I remember that I said :
"Mau deh.."

When I remember that both of us were smiling
When I remember that you gave me a hug
When I remember that I could smell your perfume

I always remember that day :
The Fourth Of March 2009

I always remember that :
I am very lucky to have you, Muhammad Fediansyah :)


XOXO,
Denisa :D

A Dilemma Of A High School Student

Kenapa bisa dilemma?
Let me explain.
Jadi rencananya kemaren, gue dan temen-temen gue mau jengukin salah seorang sahabat kita yang payah banget karena kena demam berdarah dan typhus dalam waktu bersamaan.
Gue sempet nanya juga "eh lo dulu imunisasi ngga sih?" (Peace noni sweetie. you know well who i am hahaha)

Oke.
Rencana cabut yang kita bikin pas hari selasa adalah :
KITA CABUT RABU YA, LADIES!
Gue oke-oke saja karena gue pikir wednesday is the only day when i have spare time
Eh ternyata, malemnya ada kejadian tak terduga. Ada perubahan jadwal.

Gue yang tadinya mau ketemuan sama My Panda Syalala hari kamis, dimajukan.
Jadinya hari rabu aja gitu.
Gue senang dong yaaa.
It means the time i have to pass dengan segala kangen dan tetek bengeknya berkurang sekitar 24 jam. Ya kan?
Otak gue udah penuuuuuuuuh banget isinya : RABU RABU RABU-KAMU KAMU KAMU :D

Eh, tapi gimana dengan cewek-cewek kesayangan gue itu?
Gimana dengan rencana mulia kita?
Gimana nasibnya tikus gue yang mungkin udah jadi tengkorak saking cekingnya?
Gimana gimana gimana?

Ini adalah sepotong review percakapan gue dengan si panda, pas gue bilang sama dia kalo gue mau cabut. Pas ini, belum ada tuh rencana perubahan jadwal..
Denisa : eh besok aku mau cabut nih
Dia : cabut? cabut ke mana?
Denisa : jengukin temen sebangku aku yang dbd
Dia : dirawat di mana?
Denisa : di harum. aku males cabut sebenernya tapi aku pengen jenguk dia juga
Dia : Jenguklaaaah.. Orang sakit tuh sembuh selain pake obat, tuh dijengukin. disemangatin
Denisa : Emang iya ya?
Dia : Iya dong. Emang kamu ngga tau?
Denisa : Engga tuh hehehehe. eh tapi aku males cabut nih
Dia : Bingung kan? Kamu mau jenguk tapi ngga mau cabut
Denisa : Iya. Dan kamu ngga membantu tau. Cuma ngulang pertnyaan aku aja
Dia : HAHAHAHA
Denisa : Eh terus gimana dong?
Dia : Kamu besok masuk jam setengah sepuluh kan?
Denisa : Mmm
Dia : Kenapa ngga jenguknya sebelum sekolah aja?
Denisa : Hah?
Dia : Hah? Apanya?
Denisa : OH IYA
Dia : Oh iya?
Denisa : OH IYA BENER BANGET HAHAHAHAHA
Dia : Eh kamu kenapa sih?
Denisa : IYA IYA KOK AKU NGGA KEPIKIRAN YAAA?? HAHAHAHA
Dia : Ih apaan sih?
Denisa : Iyaaaa berangkat jam segitu YA AMPUN
Dia : Kamu ngga kepikiran? Sama sekali?
Denisa : SAMASEKALI sumpah deh ya ampun pinter deh kamu
Dia : Oh ya dong jelaaaaaaassssss

Oke. Jadi sampai saat ini pun gue masih belum dapat keputusan yang cukup bagus untuk ketigabelah pihak. Gue, Si Panda, dan Cewek-Cewek gue.
Nanti gue post lagi dehya dilemma gue berakhir seperti apa. Udah jam segini juga, dan gue masih pake piyama dan celana pendek yang ada bolongnya di paha ;p
Mandi aaaaaaahhhhh :D

A Message For My Lord

God,
I thank You for the times You've given to me
I thank You for happiness You've written to me
I thank You for letting me live in an amazing family
I thank You for giving me faithful bestfriends

And now, I Thank You more, My Lord
For the moment when i met him
For the chances to let me knew him well
For the cares he has given to me
For all the times he reminds me to eat
For all the times he wants me to be careful
And for the love which growing on me :)

So many things You've blessed to me,
but can i still ask for several things more?

Because i don't want this circumstances to change
Because i don't want You to take him out of my life
Because i still need him to reminds me to be careful
Because i still want to support him when he is down
Because i still want to tell him that he's extremely cute, like a panda :)
Because i still want to see his laughs
Because i still want to spend the rest of my time with him

God,
Please answer my pray by letting him by my side

Love,
Denisa :)

Last

Friend, whose smile has come to be
Very precious unto me,
Though I know I drank not first
Of your love’s bright fountain-burst,
Yet I grieve not for the past,
So you only love me last!
Other souls may find their joy
In the blind love of a boy:
Give me that which years have tried,
Disciplined and purified,
Such as, braving sun and blast,
You will bring to me at last!
There are brows more fair than mine,
Eyes of more bewitching shine,
Other hearts more fit, in truth,
For the passion of your youth
But, their transient empire past
You will surely love me last!
Wing away your summer-time
Find a love in every clime
Roam in liberty and light,
I shall never stay your flight
For I know, when all is past
You will come to me at last!

Do I That Easily To Change?

It's sooooo much different.
It's been a long time since i was in love years ago.
It's just like no differences between laugh and cry
I just know you well for a week, but at the bottom of mine, it feels like a year
I don't know about what i'm feeling right now, exactly
I don't know why my brain keeps rolling about yours
The way you laugh, especially

I'm not that kind of girl who easily in love just with a little effort
Or even cars or jewerlies
I never care about looks
One thing that disturb me is :
I'm Afraid That You Change
I never reveal anything about what i'm feeling straightly
But i know that i can not hide it for long

I'm glad that you care. even your care is dedicated for everyone
I'm glad when you ask me 'have you eat your breakfast?'
I'm glad to know that you are happy. even your happiness is not because of me

Am i the different person with i was month ago?
Do i that easily to change?

I dont know..

NEW - Another Side Of Mine

Well, Hi! ini sebenernya blog ke-dua gue karena yang pertama lupa password -biasalah ya standar banget alesannya-
Oke. Starting from now, kayaknya gue bakal share cerita-cerita gue disini karena sepertinya udah ngga jaman nulis di diary hehehe
So, it's me : Denisa Soewardie is On The Air :)